It has been quite a while since I have posted anything so here in an update of what has been going on:
-I had a baby in December. She is a beautiful baby girl named June. She is precious and all around completes our family. I can't image what life would be like without her. Evalyn loves being a big sister and for the most part does it really well. There is only certain times when June is chasing her around the house wanting to play with the same toy that Evalyn gets annoyed.
My last pregnancy was hard. I was on bed rest the last four months due to contractions. It was a struggle everyday. I was constantly in a state of worry that my sweet baby girl would be born too early and she wouldn't be healthy. I am happy to say that I made it to full term and delivered her at 38 weeks and she was healthy and was able to come home with us.
-In February my grandpa had a bad fall in which he broke his neck and his hip. He was in the hospital for a while, but never seemed to bounce back to his old self. After several weeks in the hospital we honored his wishes and brought him home so he could live out his final days at home. He died in early March and I miss him greatly. He was always such a strong constant person in my life and it was hard to watch him get sick and decline so rapidly.
-In mid March I started experiencing some horrible pain in my side that I had never experienced before. After two ER visits and several other tests it was determined that my gallbladder was no longer functioning properly. April 1, 2013 I had surgery to remove my gallbladder and was relieved of the horrible pain that I was in.
-In May I started experiencing some pain in my back that wrapped around to my stomach. Another two trips to the ER and an MRI later it was discovered that I have a herniated disc in my lower back. It is some of the most intense pain I have ever experienced. I did physical therapy for months and had steroid injections in my back in an effort to alleviate the pain. Towards the end of August I was almost pain free and it felt so nice.
-About three weeks ago I was putting June down to bed and felt something pull in my lower back. I have been in pain since. The pain seems to come and go, but mostly it is intense and wrapping around my torso and squeezing me making it hard to breathe. This time, I have no idea what the cause is, I just know I am in pain and I don't like it.
-Throughout all this I have been struggling greatly with postpartum depression. It started about two weeks after June was born and it has been a struggle. I was having a hard time dealing with the stress and expectations of having two children and taking care of their needs as well as taking care of the house and being a good wife to Adam. I was crumbling under the pressure of being a mom and despite seeing a Psychiatrist every two weeks and a Therapist every week we could not find the correct dosage of medication to help me. Throw in family stress and health issues and I was a complete mess. I ended up having a breakdown and getting some help that was much needed.
Now I am doing much better, I feel I have both feet under me. I feel now that we have finally achieved the correct combination of medication and that has made the world of difference. We also hired a Nanny so I would not be so overwhelmed during the day at home with the kids. Hiring Diana has been one of the best decisions Adam and I have made for our family. I am able to enjoy spending time with my kids and I no longer feel as if I am about to burst.
-I would not be where I am now without my family, especially my husband. He has been there everyday for me encouraging me that I can do it. My family has also been wonderful, they have helped me with whatever I need and their help does not go unappreciated.
